worth da while.

i'm sorry for doubting on you.
for not trusting you.
what girlfriend said was right, i'm the one at fault who pushes you away.each time you pls me to stay with you. friends who knows me well all knows that i wont go back against my words but this time it's really different.
and now i have to put down my pride &' everything to resolve this matter. to say sorry, to hold you back. and not to avoid the matter anymore. cuz i know what i want, and 1 thing which girlfriend questioned me. that's when i can't bear to leave everything.
ya i know it's stupid. without eating,sleeping~ only waiting &' more waiting..but is not immature thinking or emo. is just that i cared for the person feelings. i rather the person live happier. cuz that person suffered enough hurts &' everything. it's my first time dealing on this kind of things alone. yes alone. luckily girlfriend,bbyg&'some people were there for me. there's alot of things i want typed. if your lucky enough :) your find your way to this blog. <3 you guys for being here for me! telling me everything will be alright! telling me to think positively! <3<3 for those who knows what's happening on.. thanks for the smses,msn,fb-ing,face2face. i promised i will overcome it:)


lastly.. B, i'm sorry.