Helpless

 
Sorry for the MIA & everything. If your lucky, yeah this time i've unprivate my blogger.
deleted my formspring due to hackers. ohwell, if my formspring sent out shitty msges sorry):
i dont know why also people those doesnt followed me also receive, angmoh also got -.- as well as
people whom i'm nt close / familiar with. whatever iszit. sorry once again peepo's........
apart from that, for those who knows what happens. hmm. basically i-don't-know what to do neither..
if you were me, you will understand. there's some much things i wanna express it out! but who will be here?
he's no longer here.maybe else where.i'm stucked here unable to move on anymore.it's damn tiring,aimlessly.
i had never felt like this before.never.for peepo who're close to me knows that each time when i get hurt by a guy i will just simply try my very best to movee on, but now? i can't, really can't.stop asking me to try nor try x2.i really can't.FML ultra sad.don't know what to do): did i make the right move? or simply wrong? is there chance still? because i can't bear to let things over just like this. i'm a girl who takes things seriously. especially the things i'm yearning for long.ya i know love is blind): but who understand? everyday keep thinking why..perhaps he really changed? ohwell.i don't even know.i don't hate him.all i need was just an explaination. dont tell me for fun.it's nt a funfair.cuz i'm nt your toyfriend either.argh.sucky feelings): every night like this. he doesnt feel right so do i..his days were bad real bad.so do i..i might be saying hurtful things asking you to leave.but you know, i'm always 'mouth hard heart soft' translate to chinese plz.2 more days will be the 10. every 10 i be the one wishing him thru text. it's the date we started chatting &' everything began from there. will it be the same still? )': idk.imy